So much for Canada Day. Was supposed to go for a hike with shewolf1 in Wells Gray Provincial Park, but that got scrubbed at the last moment because she discovered her motorcycle had a flat, thanks to a roofing nail. Came up with a alternate plan agreed to it, but her husband was yapping at her at the same time. (Her words to me on IM about the yapping part.) That was the last I have heard from her. Waited all morning, before going for a drive in the afternoon. Went out to Adams Lake for a couple of short boat (6 car ferry. One to the east shore and the second coming back.) rides. Got home, checked my IM. Nothing. Had supper, farted around online then went to see the fireworks. Someone has loosened the headlight clips on my mountain bike so now I'll have to tighten them down and get them re-adjusted. I would have taken my road bike, but I need to get batteries for the lights on it. Probably should have just driven down. Got b***hed at by several pedestrians for ringing my bell to alert them of my presence. I should have just driven down in the car.

Tomorrow, I head for camp. On the one side, I'm rather excited about it, because I will finally get a half decent paycheque. The job is quite interesting and I know I can do it once I get all the required certification, but I have no idea if I can stand being in a camp. Shewolf1 has told me on a couple of occasions that it's just a matter of getting used to it. If I tough out three days or so, I'll be fine. However, Despite the fellow in charge of the crew wanting me, his second in command does not and is far from happy. As I wrote my DTA (Danger Tree Assessor)they had a lengthy discussion about me (I wasn't supposed to hear of course). The fellow in charge said I was to get a fair chance since I've stuck with the course while the other fellow wants to send me home. I have a feeling that he will do EVERYTHING he can to make sure that, that is what happens. The rest of the crew is neutral (at this point anyway) towards me. I'm neither liked nor disliked, but merely tolerated at best. I think he will try to royally screw me over on the physical aspect. (He already expects me to be able to run 5 KM in under 45 min. Yes, I am fit, but I don't run. I walk or cycle. having to walk with 45 pounds on my back is no big deal, but running with the same weight is an altogether different thing. Stuff like that.) At worst, I'll be despised. (Most likely somewhere leaning towards the not liked end.) I don't know what I'll do if things don't work out this time. This is why I'd rather drive a truck between Kamloops and the coast. I get to be on my own, unless of course friends want to ride shotgun. Maybe it's just me. I guess I'll find out when I get there. I'm on the verge of just giving up.

All of this is giving me the beginnings of what I believe will be a bout of depression. I'm sure miserable this morning.*sighs* I dunno really what to do. Like I said, I'll try to tough it out, but I don't hold any hope of lasting very long with them. L8R.

Current Location: At home
Current Mood: miserable
Current Music: The Morning News on Global